But I didn't mean to. I really thought my weight was holding fairly steady. I was feeling squishier but figured that was from not working out, losing a little toning. Basically I was in denial. Self enforced denial as I wasn't stepping on my scale. Well, last week, I decided enough was enough and it was time to get back on track. Enter the "5 Day Pouch Test." Honestly, I've never been a fan of this. Is it a fad? Is it real? Who knows? But I need a mental reboot....an attitude adjustment if you will. I had no idea how badly I needed this until I stepped on the scale this morning. *SIGH* OK....I'm ashamed to tell you but I'm going to because accountability is the most important part of all this. Accountability to myself...but also to you...those of you who have followed this journey for so long.
Last Weigh In: 167
Current Weight: 182
I can't believe I've let myself get back into the 180's. I'm really dealing with a lot of disappointment in myself this morning and a dash of self loathing thrown in for good measure. I'm not going to dwell on that, however. I knew I was off track. I knew I was back into old habits. I knew it had to stop before I stepped on that scale. I weighed 182 before I KNEW I weighed 182 so there's no point in wallowing. I refuse to be another WLS statistic of gaining one's weight back. Today...we're starting fresh. The ticker's been reset. Let's do this!
Now a fill is out of the question right now. I do not have a lapband doc here in FL. I'm actually seeing my lapband doc in Phoenix in July and will request a fill then. Until then, we're kicking things off with a 5 day pouch test.
So the 5 Day Pouch Test...I think most of you know what this is by now. It's been around a long time but basically it's a miniature version of the post-op diet.
Days One & Two: Liquid Protein
low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. Read more.
Day 3: Soft Protein
canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy. Read more.
Day 4: Firm Protein
ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut. Read more.
Day 5: Solid Protein
white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game
The idea is that it gives you an idea if you've really screwed up your pouch, gives you that newbie tight feeling and gives you a mental shift of being control of your eating again. I'm hoping for all these to happen. I've got my coffee, protein shakes and soup ready to go today and tomorrow. Hubby's doing it with me so that helps immensely.
The other piece of this puzzle is the blogging. It is not lost on me that I've gained this much weight in my absence of blogging. Get ready to see more of me. Self denial phase is done. Back to weekly weigh ins and getting back to doing what I set out to do 3 years ago but have somehow lost the gusto for. I have more emotional/mental notes about all this that I'll delve into this week but this post is already too long.