Friday, August 21, 2015
I don't know why but I was feeling crazy low yesterday. It was brought on by a series of small yet irritating things that I just couldn't seem to let go of. Things like arguing with the School District's Transportation Department regarding the location of the girls' bus stop, dealing with a ridiculously condescending attorney at work, forgetting to email my insurance renewal to the mortgage company (did that again today), fretting over the state of the house (it's a mess!) and then eating my feelings.
I grazed more yesterday than I have since before the preop diet. I had my coffee in the a.m. but had an early lunch of my glazed pork chop and rice (correct portion). I don't know if it's because I ate early but then I had an early afternoon snack of cheese and crackers, THEN stopped at Starbucks and got a Tall Caramel Light Frappuccino and chocolate chip cookie! And THEN I still ate dinner. Dinner was healthy...steak kabob and mashed sweet potatoes. I tracked all that on MFP and came up with 1160 calories for the day with WAY too much sugar. Is this a better fuck up day than before? Absolutely. Is this why I got cut open again? Absolutely NOT. I've got to find a better way to deal with my emotions.
That being said, today is a new day and my meals are planned. I'm going to power through any hormonal urges to drown sorrow in food.