Too much time on my hands...

So my initial consultation is tomorrow and as the title of this post implies, I've got way too much time to think about things. I'm excited because it seems like things are finally going to at least get started. But I'm also nervous because I've got all these ideas going through my head. "What are these ideas?" you might be wondering. Well, let me share. (Warning: Rambling ahead)

What if the doctor says I can't have the surgery? (can't imagine why he would. LOL). Or I'll try to hint about how I need him to kinda "find"a comorbidity for me and he'll tell me that I have to find one myself or how "unethical" that would be or how I'm an awful, cheating, dishonest person for even asking about something like that. Or that I'm not fat enough (whatever). Or even worse (and this is probably my biggest fear), he'll be on board and I'll do this 6 month diet and then United Healthcare is going to deny my claim so I won't even be able to get the darn thing.

These are the things I've been obsessing about today. And you can all see, I think most of them are pretty unfounded, or at least horribly exaggerated. I think the most legitimate fear is the last one. You never know with insurance companies. My husband's company has always been good, if not a little annoying. When I was pregnant, I had to call every time my doc did an ultrasound because they kept thinking I was asking for them instead of the doc ordering them. They also covered it after I called but I'm already imagining having to fight with them about it.

I blame most of this obsessing on work. Truth be told, my volumes right now are very low which is great for loss mitigation for my company (my area of expertise) but not so great at keeping my mind occupied all day. Incidentally, this is also part of why I'm overweight. An office environment where people are always bringing food + boredom = Fat Panda. LOL. Anyhoo...just thought I would share some pre-consultation rambling. Will let you know how the appointment goes on Friday.