Wednesday, June 29, 2011

No Pics Yet, 1 NSV and Motivation

First, thank you all for your birthday wishes Monday.  I'm taking 30 pretty well I far.  I'm a little freaked as it seems I'm officially supposed to be a grown up or something now but I guess I'll get over that.

Second, because my laptop is a giant piece of %&!* and I'm ready to throw it out the f$%#ing window being difficult, I still do not have pictures to share.  I'm going to keep working on it tonight and see if I can figure it out.

NSV:  I was looking for a pair of jeans to wear to work today and, while it's a good problem to have, it's a little frustrating because they all look so baggy and unflattering.  So I pulled a pair out from the bottom of the stack and tried them on.  They're a pair my mother gave me YEARS ago and they have never fit.  I could never even button them.  Well, ladies and gents...they fit!  And they fit pretty well...a little baggy in the butt and I'm not thrilled with the style but right now they look better than any other pair in my closet.  Good stuff.

I didn't go the gym yesterday.  I have no good excuse other than to say I just wasn't feeling it.  I haven't slept well at all in the last 2 days (stress of turning 30?) as in I'm waking up every hour or two, not falling right back to sleep.  So annoying.  So I didn't go to the gym.  I know I NEED to work out.  I NEED to be active and when it's 115 out, the gym is really the only option there without dying of heat stroke.  Yes, I see perky young people out jogging in their spandex and sports bras but let's be honest...that ain't happenin' with this body (at least not yet).  On a slightly unrelated note, does anyone know anything about eye twitches?  Mine has been twitching for two weeks straight and it's starting to drive me crazy!

I also cleaned out my purse yesterday and found my weigh in information for my last appointment with the doc.  I have only lost 1 lb since then and it's an iffy pound if that.  I have determined the "easy" part of this journey has ended...the "I don't have to work TOO hard to lose weight" part...the "I can still pretty much eat crap all week and lose weight because I'm eating so much less" part... the "I don't HAVE to work out to lose weight but it's nice to be healthier" part.  I am now entering the "I must eat healthier stuff and exercise regularly if I want to lose another pound" part.  I am OK with this..knew the day would come.  I was hoping I'd be a little lower on the scale when it did but I wasn't expecting the band to do all the work for me.  And it really hasn't.  In the last 10 months, I've tried to make better choices and be more physically active.  The last month though has just sucked on the motivation front.  For whatever reason, life got in the way and I'm having a hard time pulling out of it.  I'm having a hard time getting back to where I need to be.  Those 30 things I listed on Monday are great but they're not good enough.  It's not all I wanted out of this.  I didn't just want to lose 60 lbs...I want to hit my goal.  I want to lose at least 30 more and I can't just sit by waiting for the Weight Loss Fairy to come by, wave her magic wand and give that to me.

So there you go...hopefully a more motivated me is on the horizon.  I know I need to just suck it up and get it done but for some reason, getting my mind and my body on the same page is a bit of a challenge.

I'd like to give a shout out to a few people who have surgery dates scheduled.  Let's all send good losin' vibes to them as well as they enter Pre-op Land.  Lisa, Kristina, Little Red Riding Hood and Lee Ann - Good luck to you!  If you have a date scheduled or are a newer blogger and I'm either a) not following you or b) just missed you on the list, please leave a link to your blog in a comment.  I try to follow everyone who follows me.  Have a great Hump Day everybody!


Ronnie said...

I hear ya, I'm having problems finding jeans that fit just right. Though... it's usually more... it fits in the waist but not in the thighs problem for me (big legs, table of one). Sad.

Ohh, and my eye twitches, too... so if you get any good advice, pass it on. Cuz it kinda freaks me out.

~Lisa~ said...

Terrific NSV!! And I can't wait to see those pictures! Embrace and enjoy thirty! I am "many" years older than thirty and I'm still not "grown up" yet!

I'd maybe go see someone about that twitch. I say this because our organ diva at church (love that woman!) had to have surgery recently (on a muscle behind her eye) because her eye twitch had gotten worse - to the point she could no longer see the music she was playing.. It's probably nothing, but best to have it checked out if it isn't going away.

And thanks for the good vibes - you're the BEST!!

Jess said...

Yeah my jeans aren't fitting either.....because they are now too TIGHT! But I'm doing something about that starting TODAY!

Glad you're on the right path! You should be proud.

chloes_countdown said...

so feeling ya on this one! I'm in the next phase, too. Even though, I'm looking & feeling better I still really want to reach my goal. We can do it!!

can't wait to see those pics

Andrea Brooks said...

Yay for the NSV! I love finding clothes that I didn't think they would fit or forgot about them and then the end up fitting!