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Friday, May 27, 2011

O Scale, O Scale! Where For Art Thou Scale?

Glad to see a lot of the bloggers out and about commenting again.  Seems so lonely without it. LOL.

Not much to report on except how much I miss my scale.  It's still at the old house so I missed my weigh in this week and am picking it up tomorrow but still won't weigh again until Monday (because that's my Weigh In Day come hell or high water).  A little background:  Whenever I was serious about losing weight, I was a scale whore.  When I say "serious," I mean I was on a plan...Atkins, South Beach, whatever.  I'd get on the scale every day (sometimes more) and see the progress.  I'd do the thing where you weigh yourself, go to the bathroom, and go weigh yourself again to see what a difference it made.  And those daily fluctuations affected me terribly.  If the scale was up, I'd get discouraged and eat crappy the rest of the day because "I'm not losing weight anyway."  If it was down, I'd be giddy and happy the rest of the day.  Not a healthy relationship by any means and it obviously didn't work in keeping me motivated to lose weight.  So when I embarked my journey to Bandland I made the decision to be a scale whore no more.  I recognize the importance of the scale to track my progress and hold me accountable.  But this isn't a race...I can't expect to lose 5 lbs a week every week (I've NEVER lost that much since banded) and since the band limits my ability to binge, I can't eat my disappointment with the scale.  So I committed to once a week and I chose Mondays to try to help keep me motivated through the weekend.  I've cheated on this commitment a few times and did midweek weigh ins but never to the extent I used to.  And this has worked well for me.  If I gained, I knew why I gained.  There were no big surprises.  While I feel I've moved past my scale addiction, I don't like NOT knowing where I'm at.  I don't like NOT knowing how I'm doing.  To be fair, I don't think I've lost anything but I don't think I've gained really either.  I've eaten like crap but I've been doing a lot of heavy lifting and walking up and down stairs (My glutes sure feel it).  Portion sizes have been OK so I just feel like I don't know if I'm coming or going.  So there you go.  I miss my scale.  Wow.  That was a lot of rambling about the scale.  Moving on...

Hubby's surgery is Tuesday.  Wahoo!  This has been a long time in the making.  He started his 6 month supervised diet for insurance approval the same time I did so he's been working long and hard for this.  He's getting pretty nervous and having the same second thoughts we all go through.  Is the risk worth it?  Will it really work?  Is he sure he can't do it on his own without the help of the band?  I'm doing my best to reassure him but I also know that until he does it and starts losing weight, it's not going to help much.  I also know that a couple days after surgery, when the gas pain's at its worst, he'll wonder why the heck he decided to do this at all.  He's doing fabulously on liquids.  He's definitely ready to be banded so he can at least not be hungry and do liquids.  In my opinion, the preop is worst than the postop because you're still HUNGRY.  I wasn't hungry at all the first two weeks after surgery when I was still on all liquids so I missed chewing but at least I wasn't starving.  I hope it's the same for him.  I took all next week off to help him recuperate.  A little (meaning BIG) wrench in the plans.  My dad has heart issues and he has to have a procedure next week where they shoot the dye up his leg to see how big of a blockage he has at his heart.  The day of this procedure?  Same day as hubby's surgery.  The problem?  Who's going to watch my girls now?  Trying to figure that part out.  Of course, things can't just run smoothly because we always have to make things more difficult than they need to be.  *sigh*  Anywhoozle, I don't have internet at home and so will  probably not be posting much next week.  I'll try to get to my mom's house to let you know how his surgery goes and how he's doing but it will be minimal.  Please set a reminder for yourself to send good surgery and recovery thoughts to him on Tuesday.

I'll miss all of you next week!  Whenever I'm away for a few days, it seems like all kinds of exciting things happen and I miss it.  So please try to have a dull week to make catching up easier for me.  Hope everyone States side has a wonderful Memorial Day.  Let's remember what the day is all about and remember those who made the ultimate sacrifice for our country.

And without further ado, your Friday Funny:

8 comments:

Linda said...

I hope when you are reunited with your scale its positive. I hope your husband and dad do well next week.

Dianne said...

Sending positive thoughts to you all next week!!!
And that cartoon cracked me up! :)

Leslie said...

I have scale issues. I really need to limit myself on weigh in days. I am going to come up with a day or two and stick to them starting next week. If you can do it, I can do it.

Good luck to your husband!!! I will be sending good vibes your way!!

Midwest Meg said...

I think most have scale issues, but sending positive thoughts your way!

Stephanie said...

I'm sending you and your hubby a ton of positive vibes!!! My scale hasn't been my friend this week, but then again I hyperfixate and weigh myself every day!!!

Ronnie said...

I need to pick a day, too. I weigh myself at least 4 times a week and it's kinda disheartening. :(

I'll be sending good thoughts your hubby's way on Tuesday! :) He needs to start a blog now! lol

Sam said...

The battle of the scale can be hard. I tend to check more often when I am doing well, I love seeing the small changes continue to decrease to the numbers :o)

I am sending the good vibes for both your hubby and your dad!!

Patrick said...

Good morning, best wishes to your hubby on his surgery today.

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