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Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Disappearing from Blogland

Not me!

There are have been a few people I follow who seemed to have dropped off the planet from Blogland.  They've started coming back around and their reasons are all the same.  They fell off the wagon.  They fell into a pit of despair and vicious cycle of overeating/eating crap, feeling ashamed so they eat some more which leads to feeling more ashamed which leads to...

You get my point.  And because they've got people following their every pound in Blogland, instead of fessing up, they disappeared.  Now that they're trying to get back on track, they're re-appearing.  Well, here's the thing...that's all well and good and I'm happy to offer the support.  I've been there.  We have ALL been there.  But disappearing doesn't help.  We fatties (former fatties for some) have a way of running away from our problems.  What did we do before we got on the healthy train?  We ATE our feelings.  Now that we can't do that, how do we cope?  Hell if I know.  But it seems that avoiding the real issues is what we're good at.  Since we've now involved others in our journey, we run away by disappearing.  We're just not going to post what we ate today or what the scale says.  (I know I got as fat as I did by avoiding the scale completely - didn't even own one) That way, it's as if the binging and crying and sneaking food, etc. isn't really happening.  Well, my friends.  It IS happening.  Avoiding us in Blogland doesn't change that.  We all claim that we started the "journal" (blogging) for ourselves, to have a record of our journeys.  Uh huh.  Then we got followers and we felt the support we get from them but along with that support, came accountability and I think that scares the poop out of some people.

What's the point of this post?  I guess I don't really have one.  I guess I'm just trying to say that if an alcoholic really wants a drink, do they skip the AA meeting that week?  No.  They go and fess up to the feelings.  It's easy to accept suppport and praise when you're doing well but it's asinine to think that if you've fallen, then you don't need (or maybe deserve?) the same level of support.  So to all the disappearing bloggers out there who may just be lurking waiting for inspiration to strike.  Please take this as a wake up call to come back, start typing and start getting healthy again.

Stepping off of soapbox long enough to say I still haven't gone to the gym.  I'm still on Week 3 of the 5k program if I can still even do that.  I've caught a cold or some kind of sinus thing and feel like crap.  That could also be accounting for the tone of this post.  I just know that I find a lot of support here and it makes me angry when people don't let others help them when it's obvious they need it.  Guess I got back up on that soapbox again.  Hmmm...not sure I have much more to contribute.  I had a good day at work today and I finally get the car back from the mechanic today (Yes...still dealing with that).  I'm kind of sad to see the rental go but tis life.  My eating hasn't been terrible but my water intake is horrid.  Gotta get back on track with that.  See?  Struggling a bit here...but that's OK.  I'm not going anywhere.  All of you that follow along are just gonna have deal with it when I'm not feeling the love.  SO THERE!

Happy Hump Day everybody!

9 comments:

Barbara said...

I think blogging helps you .. I know during good times and bad.. my blog buddies have been wonderful.. and I am very thankful for all of your posts on my sometimes not band related things.. thank you...

Gen said...

So right about not blogging. I did it once, hopefully no more disappearing acts.

Sarah G said...

:)

Bonnie said...

Sometimes I feel like I need a break from posting, but I'll still read others blogs and leave comments. Reading other people's success is motivating, but posting about my failures/stalls can get old after a while. Hope you feel better soon.

~Lisa~ said...

Feel better soon Lady! And I totally agree with everything you said.. I am with Bonnie.. There are times when I don't or can't blog - but I am always checking, commenting, cheering, and hugging every chance I get! I'm addicted to each and every one of you!!

(((hugggsss))) to YOU!! (_)> and a cup of virtual chicken soup to keep you moving!!

Rachel said...

You are totally right...I think when I don't blog I tend to let loose. Blogging keeps me honest.

Ronnie said...

Seconded! I've been having tons of setbacks lately, but I make an effort to blog every day. If only to show off my fabulous new jewelry. ;)

I also feel kind of like a fraud commenting on others' blogs when they're having problems because I'm in the same boat. :( So maybe I'm running away from commenting. Crap.

Kajun Gumbo (Dee) said...

Your so right , I find the same head-in-the-sand situation pops up with my food log, I have literally talk to myself to make me put down foods when I know I have blown my calorie limit out the water. I have to remind myself that omitting it from my log won't "omit" if from my hips ;-))

Catherine55 said...

Totally agree -- my bloggie keeps me on the straight and narrow.. more often than not! :) Plus, with awesome blogging bandsters like you out there, it's so nice to get some support when things aren't going well -- and props when they are!