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Thursday, October 28, 2010

On The Road Again...

Or should I say wagon?  Yesterday was by far one of the worst eating days I have had since being banded.  I grazed all. day. long.  I don't know what was with me.  I think a lot of it was boredom.  Work has gotten painfully dull and boring bland.  That's a good word for it...bland.  It's not that I don't necessarily like what I do but it is pretty monotonous.  Yesterday morning, I attended a breakfast for my daughter.  She's "Student of the Month" in her class for October and they had muffins and juice and then held a little ceremony where she got her certificate along with the 30 or so other kids.  I'm very proud of her and I think it meant a lot to her that both my hubby and I went.  (Incidentally, this does NOT mean I'll be placing one of those bumper stickers on my car.  It's bad enough that I drive a minivan...) We split up the parenting duties pretty evenly so it's rare that both of us go in late to work or something for an event.  But I felt this warranted it.  So anyhoo...I went into work late but I think I got it in my mind that I was actually running late so I rushed through some of my projects which left a good chunk of the day with very little to do.  Then I heard it..."Mandaaaaaa.....Oh Mandaaaaaa....You know you want some...I've missed you....How could you abandon me?"  Yep...it was the community candy bowl.  Freshly stocked with Halloween goodies.  I haven't caved to this temptation once since being banded but yesterday...oh yesterday...I went back to that bowl like a long lost lover returning home from war!  I had kit kats; I had hershey's; I had MILK DUDS!  EGAD!!! 

I tried a new hot dog place for lunch and got me a chili dog.  A chili dog...bun and all!  And it wasn't even worth it.  They got my order wrong (put onions and mustard on it...blech) but I ate it anyway.  WTF??  I had chips.  Some kind of cheddar and sour cream kind and I usually can't stand stuff like that.  I don't know what was the matter with me.  I hit up Arby's (remember my fast food rule????) and had a sandwich AND loaded potato bites!  Seriously????  Someone strap me to a chair and feed me protein shakes intravenously from now on! 

So today is a new day.  I have brought a couple protein bars and some fruit.  I'm not sure what I'm going to do about lunch...I may just skip it today or just go for a bowl of soup or something.  I feel like I need to go through detox to rid my body of these ridiculously processed and horrible-for-you foods.  Tonight, we are going to a Fall Festival at my daughter's school.  I plan on eating before we go as to avoid temptation there.  I did hit the gym once this week and will try to hit again at some point.  I have caught a cold so I feel like warmed over panda poop so we'll see how the whole working out thing goes.  Regardless, rain or shine, sick or well, I will be walking my 8 miles on Saturday...maybe 10 if I feel punchy.  Heel pain?  Still there...I'm just ignoring it.  If I don't post before the weekend, hope you have a great one and if you live somewhere other than Arizona, enjoy the fall weather!  It's supposed to get up to 94 here tomorrow.  Ugh!!  I leave you with a giggle...

11 comments:

Amanda said...

lol. Warmed over panda poop.

I just got back from the grocery store with protein filled snacks. Lets see if I follow my own rule!

Today will be a better day I know!

Patrick said...

Well, the right attitude is knowing that today is a new day. Each day we start our missions over, we are always on Day 1 in reality.

If it helps, remember that milk duds result in abnormal growth of the big toe and will lead to the inability to wear shoes. You don't want to go there.

Congrats to your daughter, very cool award for her and so cool that you & hubby got involved in the celebration.

Nikki said...

I know personally we feel like crap when we have an off day. But in the scheme of things, I look at it as a small reward for the wonderful job we are doing. Your doing fabulous! Yay for your daughter! I always got the "She talks to much" award sent home - don't think that compares? ;)

~Lisa~ (Mrs C) said...

Congrats to your daughter!! You should be VERY proud!! It's nice that you and the Hubs were able to share in the festivities - I imagine that made her feel so special!

And, anytime we fall of that proverbial horse, the only thing to do is get right back on it! I'm glad you dusted yourself off and jumped right back on the horse!

Amanda said...

A nurses line! Great idea!!

amandakiska said...

We all have bad days. What matters most is that we don't let them become bad weeks or bad months or bad years. It also sounds like you need a fill. When can you get one?

I have found for me that when I eat sugar I usually feel a strong craving about 20 minutes later. I am sure it is due to the drop in blood sugar after the first treat wears off. When I am prepared for it, I can recognize it for what it is and it passes. It is easy to keep going back for more to avoid that sudden drop.

Rachel said...

Congrats on your Student of the Month.

Your attitude is good. I really think you have to move on after a bad day...otherwise its easy to create a domino effect of many days.

Jess said...

Been there, done that. Every day is a new day, new start. I have finally gotten that through my thick head. I always feel like portion cutting isn't progress unless you eat healthy foods. It's hard for me to imagine eating small amounts of unhealthy foods just to cut calories. Other people do it and are just fine. Why can't I? Hmm...I just can't grasp that concept.

Phil said...

94 - sweet jaysus!

I had a weekend like you are describing, when you just jump from one unhealthy choice to another and another and it all spirals...but they are never worth it in the end - it always makes me feel like crap when i lose control and binge. Why can't we just have one naughty treat and be done with it and just enjoy it for what it is, and then back to normal....sigh, when does the healthy choice simply become the only choice because we re-programmed ourselves? Soon, i bloody well hope. ;o)

Have a good (and healthy) one manda.

Sparkler said...

I've just been catching up on your October posts as I was a bit behind and I'm so impressed with your hard work! I couldn't ever imagine taking on such a huge walking challenge and your whole attitude is one that foretells success to me...the fills will be a big help. xx

~Lisa~ (Mrs C) said...

Hey MandaPanda! Thank you for the comment on my post!! It was really tough spending time together when the kids were young - especially while the Hubs was in law school.. Little things, short time was special (why do you think massage oil was created!!) Let's just say "creativity" was half the excitement!