Wednesday, September 23, 2015

I F*$&%ing Did It Again!

I can't freakin' believe it!!!  So I went to the gym last night, did my treadmill, did my elliptical, decided to finish strong with 10 minutes on the beast.  The one that was broken the last time still as an "out of order" sign on it so I choose the other one.  I get up (already made it further than last time) and hit "start."  USUALLY, it starts on level 1.  WTF?!?!?  It started on the highest level!!  As if it never reset from the guy who was on it before me.  So I'm frantically hitting "Stop" and nothing is happening.  So of course, I FELL!!!  OMFG!!!  Fuck me and my life!  Once again, a couple concerned onlookers come over to see if I'm OK.  Thank goodness neither of them are the same people who came over last time.  Since this was my last work out, I just got out of there and had an emotional breakdown in my jeep.  I seriously feel like such a fat, uncoordinated loser.  IF I manage to get up the nerve to show my face at the gym again, I definitely will not be using that machine ever again.

Mailbox guy is coming today.   I can finally start getting my mail again.  Otherwise, it's the same shit, different day.  SIGH.  Better attitude coming later in the week.


Shelley said...

It's not you, it's the machine...and I'd never go on it again, either!

Catherine55 said...

Hey now!! Don't even think the words "fat, uncoordinated loser"!! That is not you at all. That stupid machine isn't working right, and the gym should be thanking its lucky stars that you weren't seriously hurt!

Don't let this embarrass you or give you any pause about going back to the gym. You fell off the horse -- get right back on. Don't let that stupid machine derail your good work and the good patterns you are making in your life and routine.

I'm rooting for you! Get back in the gym and let us know how it goes!



#fatfreefloozy said...

That is seriously my worst nightmare ever! My treadmill at home has a little bug where it stops mid cycle and I get jolted, but I am so scared that will happen in the gym one day. I also worry that I am going to smack myself in the face with a weight during body pump! Steer clear! Stupid machine thing!