2 Post Thursday

2 posts in one day?!?!  From me?!?!  Impossible!!!

Well, believe it Candyland players....because I've been spending a good bit of today reading back through my old posts.  I just picked a few dates and started reading from there.  And I noticed a couple things:

• I use bullets a lot.
• I'm long winded.  Seriously...how can you people follow someone who rambles on and on and on about virtually nothing?
• I have seriously lost sight of where I started, how far I've come and how motivated I used to be.

Obviously, I'm going to harp on that third bullet.  My early banding posts were so focused, so driven, so... positive.  I knew - KNEW- that even if I was having an off week or whatever that I was going to do what needed to be done to get back on track and back to do what I knew I had to do.  And something has happened.  I've become complacent.

Reading through those posts, I remembered how driven I was and how motivated.  I can see that I have struggled with exercise through out this entire journey and am constantly struggling to be more active.  I saw how I set lofty athletic goals and then worked diligently, sometimes for MONTHS, to obtain them.  So what the hell happened to that person!??!!?  Life.  That's what.  It is impossible to stay so myopic about something all the time, day in and day out, year after year.  Well, folks.  Not for me.  Not for you.  Not for any of us.  This losing weight thing we've all embarked on...this was a long haul prospect.  Your health is with you FOREVER.  This was about obtaining a better quality of life.  Have I obtained that yet?  Yes and no.  Some things are way better but I've still got a LONG way to go.  And I'm not going to stop until I get there.  Starting right now...I'm back on the positivity wagon, I'm back on an active wagon and I'm back on the road to success.  In the words of Jerry Maguire, WHO'S COMING WITH ME?

Shopping and Fill

So I did some shopping yesterday.  My incredibly awesome mom gave me mucho dinero to buy clothes with.  This was her Christmas gift to me.  No, it's not "What Not To Wear" new wardrobe kind of  money but it was very generous.  Now I could think of a dozen other things to do with this money.  In the past, monetary gifts have gone towards bills, stuff for the kids, car repairs I had been putting off, etc.  This year, I committed to ME and spending it on ME. So I did.  I bought 4 new pairs of pants for work, a few shirts, 2 new camis and a sweater.  I was going to buy the first dress I've bought in a long time but instead bought a new pair of jeans.  I wasn't looking for jeans but had to buy them because of what the jeans SAID.

Uh huh.  Vera Wang Size 12 ULTRA SKINNY!

And me in the jeans....kinda blurry. sorry.

All the pants were a size 12 but I did squeeze into a size 10 and was able to zip them up but they weren't flattering.  I spent all of the money and I don't feel guilty about it...not one bit.  OK...maybe a little guilty, especially since I'm hoping they're transitional clothes but I was feeling pretty frumpy in my current stuff.


I also got a fill yesterday.  Last one of the year and last one where I only have to pay a copay.  I really hope I don't need another one any time soon...our "fill budget" will be completely taken up by Hubby's stuff this year, I think.  Anywhoozle...I weighed in on the doc's scale at 160.5 lbs.  Their scale always runs a lb or two heavier than mine (and I'm fully dressed on theirs as opposed to when I weigh in at home) so I'm actually not too upset about this.  It was only a 1 lb loss from my last fill though.  I could tell the doc was hesitant to give me another one as we both agree some poor choices are the main problem but he caved and gave me a small fill anyway.  I also found out that we'll save more money by going to self pay once my insurance changes over at the beginning of the year.  The office visits aren't as expensive as I thought they would be that way so I was relieved to get that straightened out yesterday as well.  So far, so good with this fill.  I'm hoping this jump starts some weight loss for me.

So what else might jump start my weight loss?  Perhaps the 5k I've decided to run in January.  That color run I've been talking about?  I'm doing it.  I start training Monday..got a 4 week program figured out so that should definitely help shed some pounds also.  I finished my last 5k in 40:35.  We're going to see if we can beat that.  I may have someone running with me and it's just a fun run/walk, not a race so we'll see.  Not gonna stress over it.  The main thing is to run the whole thing.

So that was my Hump Day happy place...a little shopping, a little fill... all good stuff. I'm taking tomorrow off so I'm happy it's my Friday.  Preview of what's up next on Panda's blog:  New Year goals and my "word" for the year.  Hope y'all have a great weekend and a fantastic New Year!

It Was Nice...

Just a low key family Christmas.  We went to my parents' house Christmas Eve (pics to come) and had a turkey dinner,opened presents and then had snacks.  I did OK on the cookie front this year but those chocolate covered pretzels and peanuts did me in.  *sigh*  Oh well.  Christmas day was spent with Hubby and the kids basking in the present afterglow.  We spent about an hour at my parents' house so we could see my grandmother who is 91 this year.  We figure there can't be many Christmases left with her and I think it meant a lot to her that we came by.  I also indulged in my Oreo Surprise which is only the yummiest and simplest dessert on the planet!

Present of the Year...snapped a quick picture of it with my phone.  Hubby had my tag from my first 5k that I ran in March framed along with a couple pics of the event.  Isn't he so sweet?!?!?!

Back at work today and then I have tomorrow off.  Still working on my goals for 2012...figure I'll be ready to start tackling them by Monday.  Hubby and I spent yesterday evening with some friends and we were talking about how sick of holiday food we are.  His friend said it best I think when he said "It's like all I've been eating since Thanksgiving is butter and gravy."  That's exactly how I feel!  I don't think I could handle one more heavy meal right now.  Definitely looking forward to getting back on the "light" and healthy wagon.

Hope y'all are having a good week!  I'll be checking in on Thursday.