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Thursday, March 25, 2010

I'm back and off to the doctor's

Hey!  This just a quick post to say I made it back from New Orleans safe and sound.  I'll post a full everything-I-did-and-include-food-porn-pics post tomorrow.  I have been milling about and getting caught up on the blogs.  I haven't been able to comment on most as I have been at work and trying to catch up with THAT has taken more time than I thought it should.  I have my 4th weigh in today with Dr. Simpson.  I'll be honest.  I don't feel good about it.  I never did get back on track (but I felt I did OK on vacation) but it was just too tough of a month for me diet/exercise-wise.  No, I don't have a good reason and it wasn't anything of biblical proportions that kept me from doing what I needed to do but it is what it is.  If I show a gain today (which is a very real possibility), I will be disappointed...not only at the scale but at myself for letting it happen.  However, I am going to try to stay positive and not get too upset and not believe that it's going to totally derail my efforts to get banded.  It's possible that I'll have to start my 6 months all over again (please God no), but what I'm hoping will actually happen is that at the end of the 6 months, this month will be merely a blip.  It will merely prove that I need the lapband to stay on track.  It will merely show the insurance representative that while I tried my hardest, I have weak spots and March was one of them but that I rebounded (please God yes) in April and May and finished strong.  If I gain, I gain.  There's nothing I can do to change that number in less than an hour so there's no point in having a breakdown about it.  I'm asking for good thoughts.  Warning though...you may see pictures of an Amy-like fit tomorrow if I gain but then I'll let it go.  I promise.

Side note: Once I get my pics downloaded to my laptop, I'll do my NOLA post.  Had a great time!  Happy Thursday everyone and it's good to be back and caught up.  Looks like I'm not the only one struggling and I'm sorry to say (does this make me a horrible person?) that it makes me feel a little bit better knowing I'm not alone. 

6 comments:

LDswims said...

Don't beat yourself up, if there was a gain. But I am certainly sending good thoughts your way. It will all be ok!

Inspiration said...

Girl, you are definitely not alone!

Bonnie said...

If you get a chance, you should read my 2 recent posts. We are SO on the same wavelength. My nutritionist said not to worry about my gain and that the insurance company looks at the 6-month period as a whole. I need to get my butt in gear for that strong finish too.

THE DASH! said...

Glad you're home safe!!!

carla said...

Dont worry about what the scale says..you have been doing so great and you were on vacation...cant wait to see pics

Girl Bandit said...

I am sure anything will just be a blip as you say