Progress

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Anyone seen a wagon around here?


Lost
1 shiny red wagon full of healthy food, moderate exercise and a motivated attitude.  This wagon was last seen a couple weeks ago racing a beginner-jogger to a 5k.  Lots of people are on the wagon -  working out, eating right, doing pilates and boot camps and Zumba.  If you spot the wagon, please give me a holler so I can climb back on.  Thanks!

Yes, Ladies and Gentleman (men? As far as I know I only have one male follower but I would hate to make assumptions), I have fallen off the healthy wagon.  I haven't worked out in weeks.  I'm eating all kinds of crap.  I had fried potatoes for lunch yesterday...FRIED potatoes.  Egad.  I have been desperately trying for the last couple days to get my motivation back.  It hasn't happened.  I'm getting Starbucks every morning and fast food for lunch and then it's out-to-eat for dinner.  I've been having COKE!!!!  No...not the illegal druggy kind, but the syrupy, sweet, just-as-addictive kind.  It is downright pitiful.  To make matters worse, I feel I am derailing my husband's efforts.  That makes me feel guilty and then I want to eat.  I can think of lots of excuses.  It's been rainy in Arizona the last couple weeks (off and on...not enough to really pose a problem).  My little girl has been sick (right...she's sick...not me...).  I got a bad haircut (it was absolutely awful...can't be seen attempting to jog like that). 

So...my devoted posse...I'm looking for my wagon. I'm ready to jump back on and hold on tight.  No more excuses.  I don't know what got in to me but it's unacceptable.  I have exactly 1 week before my trip to New Orleans and I refuse to use an upcoming trip as a reason to let it go for another week!  I am going to walk every night this week...even if it's just around the grocery store.  I am going back to my work coffee with fat free creamer.  I am bringing my lunch.  I am going to USE MY KITCHEN (and not just for girlscout cookie storage)!  And when I go to New Orleans, I am going to try whatever I want to try.  BUT I am not going to gorge myself just because I'm on vacation.  I will taste everything but try not to go nuts.  I will USE THE HOTEL GYM!  I will relax my body, my mind and my soul because I will know that I am on the road to moderation.  I have 2 1/2 weeks until my next weigh in with my doctor and I absolutely, under no circumstances, can afford a gain.  I will not allow it. 

Here wagon, wagon, wagon....where are you?????


9 comments:

Colls said...

I know just how you feel - my motivation has taken a vacation as well. I am expecting her to return any day now... Good luck with your goals, I am positive you can achieve them. It is really easy to say "well, vacation is next week, so what's the difference?". Good for you for fighting that! <3

carla said...

When you find her can you send her my way too....
Remember you are doing this without a band yet and when you get the band she will be there to help you along the way. Dont beat yourself up...just get down to business, you know what you need to do

~ Katie ~ said...

Hang in there. I'm sure the wagon make several stops a day- kind of like public transportation :) Maybe you can direct it my way too...although, I might let it pass a few times- it's fair season after all ;)

Amy W. said...

Do it! You can do it! I have those weeks too ya know! i eat everything I can! But you will find you pretty little wagon and ride that baby to hotville! Population: YOU.

Jenny said...

You can do it! We have all been there. Admitting that we've fallen off is hard, but you are getting back on!

BanderificBeauty said...

Lets get back on it together! I have been looking for it for days. It makes me feel better tho that I am not alone and I have lots of friends to hold my hand as we all jump right back on that wagon no mater how fast its goin :) We are fearless ;)

LDswims said...

I see you hanging on the back of the wagon right now, actually. Looks like you found it! First step in getting back on is to know you fell off. :)

Joey said...

If you are like me be careful not to overdo it. Then the reaction is to binge, then over restrict, then binge.... it's a deadly cycle. Just go back to where you left off. You can do it!!!

Inspiration said...

Here, I am passing my wagon back to you! I don't need it for a while, lol.
You are so brave to post your confession about drinking soda and eating fast food, plus starbucks! WOAH, girl slow down and hop back on the wagon :)