My band was removed Monday, February 23rd. Avery unceremonious way to end a 5 year journey. I highly recommend if your band needs to be removed (and you're not revising the same day), try to find a doctor who can do it endoscopically. Other than having a REALLY sore throat for a few days, no stitches, no incisions, no staples, no cutting. I felt really good. It's interesting to take a pill and not worry about it getting stuck. It's weird to be able to drink carbonated beverages again. I had my first beer in 4 years and it was GLORIOUS. It's weird that it's gone and other than those little things, I don't feel any different.
Not unsurprisingly, I can eat anything and as much of it as I want. And I am. Despite my best efforts, I just can't seem to stay on track. I need to bite the bullet and purge my house of any unhealthy food. I need to FORCE myself to go the gym. But going to the gym hurts. It's hard on my knees, my lungs, my ankles, my arms and it hurts. I remember it hurting. I also remember it NOT hurting after a year of going religiously and taking 2 classes a night just because I wanted to challenge myself. I remember it NOT hurting to walk miles and miles or even run a few of them. I remember it NOT hurting to lift heavy things and lift my body weight on a rope. I don't know what hurts most now…my pride or the joints.
I have decided to attempt to get insurance approval to a revision to a gastric sleeve. I was unsure of how I felt about undergoing yet another weight loss surgery. The lap band was my "last ditch effort" after everything else had failed and as invasive as I was willing to go. And it failed. I failed. I think a part of me believed I didn't deserve another chance of getting help with this. A part of me believed that I now needed to sink or swim on my own because even surgery couldn't help. It was illogical, I realize that but I think I was punishing myself. I'm done with that. I need help. I'm not saying I could never do it completely on my own but I remember how good it was having help. I want help again. My current insurance does cover a revision but I have to jump through all the same hoops as I had previously. I have to do a psych eval, dietary evaluation (nutritionist) and a nutritional class to talk about preop/postop diets. I have to prove my diet history and have all my records faxed over again. Doc wants to let the stomach heal from the erosion for at least 4 months. That gives me plenty of time to jump through the hoops.
I'm actually not holding out much hope that insurance will pay for it. I had to fight like hell the first time and I don't think I have that much fight left in me but it's worth a shot. I'm going to do all I can do. It's a new and different journey. But as long as I'm walking down a path, I'm going to hope it's the right one.